I felt like I saw the inside of my or someone else’s heart. Maybe it was yours? And a layer of thin darkness peeled off like old paint off a wall to reveal that there was actually living, red blood-filled flesh.
I saw the layers like sediment of the earth grown over time, showing time after time of built up walls only God can knock down, even though it was built by humans. A layer of dark gray, ashy, filth. Under that was another beating alive layer. And so on.
I think a layer of some kind of hurt or darkness is peeling away from the inside of my heart. Peeling and being pryed off, as emotion drifts out from my heart and exits my every single pore. This sounds depressing to me, but in reality it’s just the opposite. Those weights that hold us down, that’s what really happened, they are being lifted.
I won’t believe what you try and take away from me. You, the world, will never take away what I have. Which in fact, is my heart. It’s being peeled, being torn down. It’s becoming raw and becoming flesh.
A new slate and a new place.
My heart is being transformed and molded. I think these are the emotions I am indeed feeling.
has washed my transgressions away.
I want to dance with somebody.You.
A lot of crap going down but I’m going to focus in on the future a bit. So excited to go to KY and Nashville next week. It’s a blessing and I’m so pumped to recieve this gift. Man. I cannot wait to be with everyone, dance all weekend and just torture the crap outta my friends. Hardcore weekend with Jesus and some $5 sushi and even cheaper tacos. Heaven yes. Idk what to write or even why I’m up but yeah, I’ll post some songs or just random crap. Who knows if someone is even reading this, but if you are… think about being positive and changing the world. Better yet, just influencing one person’s life. You are only one person. I mean that in the best way possible, but how we look at only one person we don’t know, someone sees you like that. How about you help that one person and be so kind that that one person doesn’t even know what to do with themselves but giddily (Is that even a word??) jump around in joy and laughter. Yeah… I like that. :)
Of being put down,
Of being beat around,
Of always being wrong,
Singing the same song,
It’ll get better,
I’ll just look past,
I know You hear me,
How long will this last,
It needs to end now,
I know You are listening,
Can you just cut it,
Mark it, Stop it,
We need justice,
We need to be heard,
You are listening,
Why won’t anyone else stop,
Why don’t they see,
That them making me sick,
And making me cry,
Is only making their empty bigger,
On the inside.
